Well, its finally the last week of school. Well, a week and a few days. Today is also the count down to one week till my birthday. Woo the big 2-0. Too bad everyone who asks me how old im turing think ima say 21. Next year guys, next year.
These past few weeks have just about pushed me over the edge, not including the stomach bug i had last Thursday that I'm still recovering from.
Great news, as of 9pm tonight, I will no longer be a Mu Phi Epsilon Candidate, I will be active :-)
Juries and Finals are coming up, BRUTAL is too nice to put it. Well, finals should be easy, it just so happens that I picked an F'ing hard solo to play for my tuba jury. Dumbass that I am. I'll be alright to get it done, but it might just kill me this week. Juries are on Thursday so pray for me.
Im glad to see the semester winding down. Granted this is the most busiest time for a music major, I still have Mexico on my mind. A week with my parents and sister. A week to spend much needed time with them. I need this break from lubbock, I need my own time. Time to sort out my amazing turn around from last year, and time to sort out the stuff that still isnt taken care of.
I do have most of my shit together finally, but am lacking in a few departments. In time. Rome wasn't built in a day, but I figure the foundations and walls were built in 8 months. And I'm okay with that.
*almost done*
Emily
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
Old School
School is taking over my life. Times a million. I left my house at 830 yesterday morning only to get home (first time all day) at 11pm :( Today is gonna be just like it, maybe an hour at home, if im lucky.
Just a few more days and I'll be home free. AHH getting to sleep in, and long long naps, and even late nights. (Moreso than now).
I miss Tamara, a lot. I miss her terribly. She's just so cool, my other half. I don't know what I'd do without her.
I'm glad to get away from Lubbock, away from the drama, away from the stress and away from what is driving me nuts.
WEll I'm out- gotta take care of some more Mu Phi Stuff.
-Never Ending Emily-
Just a few more days and I'll be home free. AHH getting to sleep in, and long long naps, and even late nights. (Moreso than now).
I miss Tamara, a lot. I miss her terribly. She's just so cool, my other half. I don't know what I'd do without her.
I'm glad to get away from Lubbock, away from the drama, away from the stress and away from what is driving me nuts.
WEll I'm out- gotta take care of some more Mu Phi Stuff.
-Never Ending Emily-
Sunday, April 23, 2006
Fun Dip
Fun dip is good, it dyes ur tongue different colors.
Life is hard. I know no one said it would be easy. But damn. Sometimes I feel like everything is going 100% then sometimes, im in the gutter. But thats not why people read this (if they do). They want to know about whats going on in my life.
Just had my last concert of the semester w\ "zoo" band. It was pretty rough, but the good news is, I got to be a percussionist tonight :-p for one song. I played Bass Drum. Lots of fun, and nice change of pace.
I got my big history paper done before 98% of my friends, and that was nice having that done. So I got to sit there and be moral support for the ones who didn't. :-) Although , I did feel like a minority. LOL
The only real big stuff that is stressing me out right now is Juries. I'm playing this wicked hard solo. And I've still got a lot of work to do on it. But I picked it myself, so i cant not do it. BLAH
Mu Phi Banquet is coming up. I love banquets, a nice time to get dressed up and show off my class. I have planned on going stag, but I've been told that I should be looking for a date. I was doing fine until i found out that mostly everyone going will have a date. So I guess I might have to start asking around? Dutch of course, I'm not gonna be looking for a relationship out of a banquet, just someone to be around.
I hate writing like a sad girl, but u know what. Sometimes I gotta get this stuff off my mind. So, if you don't want to hear about this. Skip to next paragraph.
-- I've got a lot of learning to do when it comes to my own relationships. Hell, I'll be the first to say that I suck at them. (or so i think) cause everytime I think i'm just casually seeing someone, I get screwed over. Even though it is mutually casual, I still get F*d over in the end... -- ( and thats all i gotta say about that)
I wrote that smaller because thats not whats important in my life right now, but something that IS on my mind.
So anyways, I feel I'll be updating this thing more often now. I tried putting a picture up in my profile but it didn't work. Meh, i think everyone who reads this knows what I look like.
I'm out-
later
Em
Life is hard. I know no one said it would be easy. But damn. Sometimes I feel like everything is going 100% then sometimes, im in the gutter. But thats not why people read this (if they do). They want to know about whats going on in my life.
Just had my last concert of the semester w\ "zoo" band. It was pretty rough, but the good news is, I got to be a percussionist tonight :-p for one song. I played Bass Drum. Lots of fun, and nice change of pace.
I got my big history paper done before 98% of my friends, and that was nice having that done. So I got to sit there and be moral support for the ones who didn't. :-) Although , I did feel like a minority. LOL
The only real big stuff that is stressing me out right now is Juries. I'm playing this wicked hard solo. And I've still got a lot of work to do on it. But I picked it myself, so i cant not do it. BLAH
Mu Phi Banquet is coming up. I love banquets, a nice time to get dressed up and show off my class. I have planned on going stag, but I've been told that I should be looking for a date. I was doing fine until i found out that mostly everyone going will have a date. So I guess I might have to start asking around? Dutch of course, I'm not gonna be looking for a relationship out of a banquet, just someone to be around.
I hate writing like a sad girl, but u know what. Sometimes I gotta get this stuff off my mind. So, if you don't want to hear about this. Skip to next paragraph.
-- I've got a lot of learning to do when it comes to my own relationships. Hell, I'll be the first to say that I suck at them. (or so i think) cause everytime I think i'm just casually seeing someone, I get screwed over. Even though it is mutually casual, I still get F*d over in the end... -- ( and thats all i gotta say about that)
I wrote that smaller because thats not whats important in my life right now, but something that IS on my mind.
So anyways, I feel I'll be updating this thing more often now. I tried putting a picture up in my profile but it didn't work. Meh, i think everyone who reads this knows what I look like.
I'm out-
later
Em
Monday, April 17, 2006
New song
I haven't been listenign to country music all that much lately. Not like I used too. but this passed Easter weekend, I was out on the boat w\ mom and dad and I heard this song by Conway Twitty. Its called. "she's got a man on her mind".
Here are the lyrics. - Ironic Eh? I think so.
See that far away look on her face
Twisting her hair, staring out into space
Theres no talking to her, don't even try
Better save your breath and just walk on by
She wasnt looking when he caught her eye
But now she can't see enough of that guy
Her head is spinning like a carnival wheel
Its getting scary but she loves how it feels.
Because shes got a man on her mind
Stirring in her soul, taking up all her time,
She's got all the symptoms, she's showing all the signs
She's got a man on her mind.
She's seeing less and less of the girls
Can't seem to fit them into her new world
Always the first to say that love wouldnt last
Now she's the one thats falling and shes falling pretty fast.
Because she's got a man on her mind
Stirring in her soul, taking up all her time,
She's got all the symptoms, she's showing all the signs
She's got a man on her mind.
It ain't been easy, just hanging tough,even harder
Understanding why she needs him so much
She's not herself when he's not around
Why he's even got her thinking 'bout settlin' down.
Because she's got a man on her mind
Stirring in her soul, taking up all her time,
She's got all the symptoms, she's showing all the signs
She's got a man on her mind.
Because she's got a man on her mind
Stirring in her soul, taking up all her time,
She's got all the symptoms, she's showing all the signs
She's got a man on her mind...
Here are the lyrics. - Ironic Eh? I think so.
See that far away look on her face
Twisting her hair, staring out into space
Theres no talking to her, don't even try
Better save your breath and just walk on by
She wasnt looking when he caught her eye
But now she can't see enough of that guy
Her head is spinning like a carnival wheel
Its getting scary but she loves how it feels.
Because shes got a man on her mind
Stirring in her soul, taking up all her time,
She's got all the symptoms, she's showing all the signs
She's got a man on her mind.
She's seeing less and less of the girls
Can't seem to fit them into her new world
Always the first to say that love wouldnt last
Now she's the one thats falling and shes falling pretty fast.
Because she's got a man on her mind
Stirring in her soul, taking up all her time,
She's got all the symptoms, she's showing all the signs
She's got a man on her mind.
It ain't been easy, just hanging tough,even harder
Understanding why she needs him so much
She's not herself when he's not around
Why he's even got her thinking 'bout settlin' down.
Because she's got a man on her mind
Stirring in her soul, taking up all her time,
She's got all the symptoms, she's showing all the signs
She's got a man on her mind.
Because she's got a man on her mind
Stirring in her soul, taking up all her time,
She's got all the symptoms, she's showing all the signs
She's got a man on her mind...
Sunday, April 09, 2006
Just What I Needed
This weekend, is just what I needed.
Lots of sun, lots of fun, and a little bit more fun. Friday night I had friends over to play poker, and guess what, I WON!! :-) First time this semester. WOO WOO! Saturday I woke up and got the car wash up and running. we made $125 and after we get the wal-mart grant (if the app. gets approved) we will have made $220 (250-30 for expenses) Had some awesome dinner last night, and then went to hang w\ a new crowd, i haven't hung with a lot outside of school. They are so much fun!! :-) i had a blast minus leaving early.. but I was tired.
Today I slept in and I feel good, even though I'm still tired. Kara and I went on our every-other-sunday Olive Garden trip, it was yummy! :) as always. I'm so glad she's my Mu Phi big sister. I love talking to her! Now I'm working on this Music History paper I have due Apr. 21. I'm trying to get it done before Easter weekend so Mom and Shelley can edit it for me. Well, I'm off to do that, I'm ushering up at school later this evening, so that'll be another excuse to semi-dress up.
Later Folks!
Lots of sun, lots of fun, and a little bit more fun. Friday night I had friends over to play poker, and guess what, I WON!! :-) First time this semester. WOO WOO! Saturday I woke up and got the car wash up and running. we made $125 and after we get the wal-mart grant (if the app. gets approved) we will have made $220 (250-30 for expenses) Had some awesome dinner last night, and then went to hang w\ a new crowd, i haven't hung with a lot outside of school. They are so much fun!! :-) i had a blast minus leaving early.. but I was tired.
Today I slept in and I feel good, even though I'm still tired. Kara and I went on our every-other-sunday Olive Garden trip, it was yummy! :) as always. I'm so glad she's my Mu Phi big sister. I love talking to her! Now I'm working on this Music History paper I have due Apr. 21. I'm trying to get it done before Easter weekend so Mom and Shelley can edit it for me. Well, I'm off to do that, I'm ushering up at school later this evening, so that'll be another excuse to semi-dress up.
Later Folks!
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
sitting in class
I'm sitting here in class, Music History. It hasnt' started yet, but I figure this is a great way to look busy. Today has been a good day, finally getting everything back on track.
_______________________________________________________
So, here is my entry about nothing.
Why does the alphabet go in the order. "ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTULWXYZ" why cant it be completely different, and who made it that way?
I promise, im not on crack.
Pubs, why do we have pubs in america? Why can't we think of our own name for drinking places, besides bars? Like, "swee's".
Yeah, this is a lot of talk about nothing, sensless topics and questions. At least I have this stuff taken care of.
Why does Dr. Smith have the tattoo of a unicorn on his forearm? Odd. I like the fact he looks like a viking though, its what makes him awesome, that and him being a GENIUS.
OY- today will be a long busy day, but my sister takes the cake on that.
later kidz
_______________________________________________________
So, here is my entry about nothing.
Why does the alphabet go in the order. "ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQRSTULWXYZ" why cant it be completely different, and who made it that way?
I promise, im not on crack.
Pubs, why do we have pubs in america? Why can't we think of our own name for drinking places, besides bars? Like, "swee's".
Yeah, this is a lot of talk about nothing, sensless topics and questions. At least I have this stuff taken care of.
Why does Dr. Smith have the tattoo of a unicorn on his forearm? Odd. I like the fact he looks like a viking though, its what makes him awesome, that and him being a GENIUS.
OY- today will be a long busy day, but my sister takes the cake on that.
later kidz
Sunday, April 02, 2006
Mixed emotions
Hey Blog,
Well, here I go again. Another time for me to write you and talk to you about how much confusion boys are bringing to my life. Which isn't even that much. Its what I'm making them bring to my life.
Here is my own psyco-analysis. (however u spell that). I trick my mind into thinking that being good friends with someone means I love them more than a friend. Which, in fact is true. But more than a friend meaning, more of like a brother than a friend. A lot of times I mix up that feeling for an actual crush and thats when I get tossed around as the "sisterly" type.
-now having come to that conclusion-
I have found that recently, i have been shutting out most of my guy friends that I have been talking to, in hopes to keep myself available for this said friend. When in fact, that friend is more of a brother to me, and I pray\think every day that he is happy. Just like I do to my family.
This meaning....
* If my parents were to have had a son, I would imagine him to turn out something like this friend of mine. *
So, shame on me, Blog... lets hope that my eyes open back up to what ive been shutting them off to for about 2 months now.
Well, here I go again. Another time for me to write you and talk to you about how much confusion boys are bringing to my life. Which isn't even that much. Its what I'm making them bring to my life.
Here is my own psyco-analysis. (however u spell that). I trick my mind into thinking that being good friends with someone means I love them more than a friend. Which, in fact is true. But more than a friend meaning, more of like a brother than a friend. A lot of times I mix up that feeling for an actual crush and thats when I get tossed around as the "sisterly" type.
-now having come to that conclusion-
I have found that recently, i have been shutting out most of my guy friends that I have been talking to, in hopes to keep myself available for this said friend. When in fact, that friend is more of a brother to me, and I pray\think every day that he is happy. Just like I do to my family.
This meaning....
* If my parents were to have had a son, I would imagine him to turn out something like this friend of mine. *
So, shame on me, Blog... lets hope that my eyes open back up to what ive been shutting them off to for about 2 months now.
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