writing

sometimes i get the urge to write. actually its a lot of the time. randomly throughout the day, ill just want to sit down with a notebook and write. all of my thoughts.... no exact topic, but just writing, like im doing now.

some people would call it a waste of time, but i use stuff like this as a release of my stress or whatever is on my mind. im actually up at school right now and am just waiting for my next class to start. woo- school, im doing really well, but damn its tiring.

i had a lot of good thinking time this past weekend. sadly enough, i didnt take advantage of it... :( it bums me out because i could have. ive had a lot on my mind lately about my life. i realize now that i think too much in my past. the partier- i havent gotten past it yet it seems. yeah i dont do it anymore, but its more to it than that. its like with the times im not partying im thinking about the times i used to party. all of this thinking goes away the second im around my friends, which is great, but i do have doubts about myself, am i a bad friend for finding a new crowd? does it mke me a bad friend, the fact i havent hung with them in about 4 months? i wish i could just go hang out with them again like old times, but thats just not me anymore.

spring break is coming up and i couldnt be more excited. i mean wow- cruising is like the only thing thats on my mind right now. its all i think about all the time
whether or not ill have fun on this next vacation, who ill meet, and what will happen. will my old ways take over me?
iono
gotta go to class- ttyl
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