a better person

i want to be a better person
i had a lot of time to think this past weekend, and look back on whats been going on lately and where my priorities were. i had let the old emily sneak in, one who got mixed in with drama and emotions, when in fact i should be going on with my life, as me. not of who i "should" be. I know my family loves me but its hard to live a single life with some family members breathing down my neck of my sole purpose in life is to be skinny, have a boyfriend and get married and make babies. thats not my immediate family but just some family in general. it gets frustrating sitting around hearing all these stories of wedding planning, or long relationships and even where ill be in ten years. i know i dont need to be in a rush to fall into this category, but every single family gathering i go to now results in someones wedding planning, or marriage status, or the fact that im the only one in both sides of my family above the age of 10 not in some sort of relationship. my dad and i have talked about this a lot, and that i shouldnt be in any big hurry. and i know that. but its hard not to think about it when everyone is talking, wedding dress this, budget that, food this, ring bearer that. i mean come on. makes me wanna go run to a secluded place and just forget about everything. a place to just hide from all the white, tulips, brown, and tuxes. a place kinda like lubbock

so back to the starting track- a better person
to get past the fact that i am the lucky person in my family that IS single
live knowing that tomorrow will take care of itself
spend as much time with my parents. sister, and soon to be brother-in-law as possible
enjoy the fact that im back home in my roots, not forgetting where i came from

Congratulations shelley
woo