Traveling

Lots of stuff going on, whats my focus right now? Traveling of course.


Just back from an incredibly fun trip to Georgia. High up on my list of places I've been. I love my college girls\boys. Sarah, Calan, Audrey, Olivia, Ashleigh, and Jeff. Every time we see each other its like we've never left. It breaks my heart we're so far apart geographically.

I know why I'm traveling so much. I just wish I could afford to travel more.

Dark Day #2

:(

Time for a Change

I'm ready for some more happy changes in my life. I've found some good inspiration, but I hope I can follow through with it. I had done a wonderful job about getting in shape a couple summers ago, however I've since fallen off the bandwagon.

A friend of mine has done a wonderful job getting herself in shape and I long for that same success.

I know what I need to do to lose the weight, however keeping up the motivation is half the battle.
Thoughts? Prayers? Accepting all encouragement.

Dark Days

I've been having some dark days lately.


Nothing worth venting on here, but just dark days.


Lots has changed, really really really fast and its finally catching up to me. Looking forward to something happy in my life happening....


CEL

Addicted

Well, things are infinitely better than my last posts. I'm very happy to say that a cruise can fix all life's stresses. Its just the right amount of freedom to help you reset yourself to be a better person.

I liked it so much, I booked another. Yes, I know its an expensive habit. Yes, its worth it. No regrets.



I read the Hunger Games book this weekend. Enjoyed it, I just wish it didn't take so long to get into it. Much better by chapter 8. Will hopefully see the movie next weekend!

Better

Things are better. I'm glad im going on a cruise soon.

All Alone

I sit here, at my favorite place to feel at home. (Marble Falls) and I feel 100% utterly alone.


People all around me, things happening. All alone. All have their place, except me. I'm in limbo. The person who people "feel sorry for". I feel Pitied, then "lesser-than" others.

I hate negative feelings. I try my best to stay positive most days, but I must call a rat a rat.

Some will say its my hormones being out of whack (which is true) however I can't help but wonder : What if my hormones being out of whack, is just the lowering of my ability to put on a happy face??


In the Dumpiest of Dumps.

Classic Emily Luck.
Emily

Whats wrong with me?

Today, in the middle of 3rd grade, I about started crying, because I wanted a desk job. Some days, I would much rather give up my summers off, to sit at a desk and work independently all day. Granted the number of days that I think that are few. But today is one of them.

Is it possible that some people are flawed. Uncontrollably flawed. Not a negative flaw either, just defaulted. I feel like the black sheep.

I eat dinner by myself at restaurants.
Most guys annoy me.
I take it personal anytime someone thinks I've done wrong, even when I haven't.
I enjoy coming home and sitting in silence for at least an hour.

Icing on the cake

My job is hard.

Back to where I started

One of my friends posted a picture of her husband on Facebook and captioned it "I'm so smitten with him".

I stopped, read it, and re-read it. How lucky it is to find your true love. To meet someone, and realize you'd do anything for that person. That waking up next to them every day is the only thing that matters. I'm envious.

So the butterflies I miss. It's not that. It's the "smitten-ness" I want. I want to be mind blowingly head over heals in love.

One of my good friends told me today, that in order to get there, I have to open myself up to let someone in. I never thought of myself as closed off, but then I thought about it.

I always find an excuse with guys, they're too this or too that. Not enough this, not enough that. And I go back to my "safe place"... my family. I hide in my family. Now, please don't get me wrong, I adore them and love every minute I spend with them. But I'm starting to realize I most likely use them as a cover or protection so I don't have to worry about my heart getting broken.

So how to fix this???

Em

in the dumps

Hey everyone,

I'm in the dumps again, not sure why. Had a very long day at work today, and I'm pretty much wiped out.

It's one of those days you want to talk to someone about it, but then again you're too tired to rehash it.

I'm tired of my ear. I want to chop it off.

That is all.

HO Hum
Em

Crazy

So I go back and read my last post. I smile.

I had a lovely week. TMEA- Texas Music Educators Association. Such a wonderful clinic\conference. I enjoy the classes, the exhibits, and seeing old friends. Acenar rocked, as usual. Haha.

I'm the luckiest girl in the world. So happy. :) Although, I miss my friends who all live elsewhere!!

Em

Butterflies

Good evening, Blog world.

Well, I'm here just about to crawl into bed and felt the need to update the ol' blogg-aroo.

Its been a crazy couple of weeks, but seems like things are getting back into their rhythm.

Why "Butterflies" as the title you ask? I miss them.

No, not the caterpillar\pupa\butterfly, but the heart skips a beat when you think about them butterflies. Yeah, I know its probably because Valentine's day is around the corner, but gimme a break. It's been a long time since I've really been interested in anyone. At least, with..butterflies.

My awesomely funny sister is true to her word when she asked me if she could make a profile for me on ChristianMingle.com I said of course. Which is true, because I haven't had much luck filling out the correct answers for myself on Match or Eharmony. Well, the ball is rolling with a few gentlemen, but I still don't feel the spark, the butterflies. I'm not sure what's missing from them. They all seem like great catches, but I'm missing something. Maybe its because its online dating, maybe because I long for the human contact that is a potential spouse. I dunno.


I miss you butterflies, I look forward to when you return.

Em

DAMN.

Pondering

Funny how someone crosses your mind, odd times of the days. My friend Crystal has been on my mind a lot this evening. So she's going in my prayer book.

Miss you Papa

worried

Worried worried worried.

Pity Party

What in the hell is wrong with me?!?!?!?

My job is great, I have a house, I have so much fun hanging out with my family. Why...Why Why why...am I still not happy. What's wrong with me?!?!!!?!
Even with loving people all around me, I feel alone. I'm supported, cared for, and super blessed. But at the end of the day I feel as if I have nothing.

once again. What in the hell is wrong with me?

I have all of this built up frustration that is just pouring out of me and I hate it.

So go ahead, judge me for my pity party. I just needed to vent.

Greetings

Hello there blog family.

Hope you had a lovely Christmas and a Happy New Year.

Where do I begin?

Christmas was spent in Colorado, and that was a lot of fun. Enjoyed spending time with my cousins and visiting with my Aunt and Uncle.

New years was alright.

Before school started back up, I received a call from my Principal that my classroom was broken into over Winter break. All of my electronics (minus computers) were stolen. I still well up when I think about it now. Some people are just plain horrible.

I'm very fortunate in these next few weeks that I don't have too much on my plate with the exception of some travels.

I'm sorry to my friends and family who are confused by my "I feel invisible" post. I feel I'm lacking direction in my life at the moment, and my "stresses" are obsolete in the schema that is my life right now.

Spring break is coming up, I'm looking for ideas to travel. If you know of any, let me know!

I feel slightly invisible these days.

Oy

1. What time did you get up this morning?
9:30 - it was lovely

2. How do you like your steak?
Medium

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
Twilight: Breaking Down Prt. 1

4. What is your favorite TV show?
Big Bang Theory

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
Where my family is.

6. What did you have for breakfast?
Blue Bell Chocolate Ice Cream- don't judge me, that was like pre-lunch.

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
Tex-mex\mexican food

8. What foods do you dislike?
sushi

9. Favorite Place to Eat?
Had dinner at Pappas tonight. so thats a win right there.

10. Favorite dressing/s?
1000 island

11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?
Ford Fusion SEL- V6 : )

12. What are your favorite clothes?
maxi dresses

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
I would like to spend more time in Italy.

14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full?
Half full.

15. Where would you want to retire?
Not sure yet.

16. Favorite time of day?
either night or morning. never both.

17. Where were you born?
Conroe

18. What is your favorite sport to watch?
Football

19. Are you a morning person or a night person?
see question 16

20. Do you have any pets?
share custody of tucker with my parents

21. What did you want to be when you were little?
a doctor

22. What is your best childhood memory?
traveling

23. Are you a cat or dog person?
I love both, but mostly dog

24. Are you married?
nope

25. Always wear your seat belt?
always in the front seat

26. Any pet peeves?
loud breathing and smacking

27. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
Pepperoni, and jalepenos

28. Favorite Flower?
hydrangeas

29. Favorite ice cream?
Bluebell- any flavor

30. At which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
Walmart or Target

31. Like your job?
loving it this year

32. Last person you went out to dinner with?
Parents, sis, and brother in law

33. Coffee Drinker?
Yes, im a teacher....duh.