Monday, February 11, 2013
What to do, What to do.
I haven't jumped off the blog bandwagon, just been busy. Still trying to figure my shit out!
Saturday, February 02, 2013
I'm slowly getting to the core of "Me" (long post)
Hello again, everyone. I know my second blog in a week. WATCH OUT!
Once again, I find myself with lots on my mind. BIG things on my mind. Life altering ideas running through my head.
This morning I woke up having had a wonderful dream of PaPa Dale. I miss that man so much. I had walked outside out of a building, and there he was. Standing there just like it was yesterday. He looks up and sees me, and he smiles ear to ear. I run to him, as fast as I can and wrap my arms around his neck. It's my adult mind, but physically I'm 8 year old Emily. He's 80 year old Papa also. I sit here almost sobbing because it felt so real. I miss his wisdom, his conviction to let me know that I'm always doing the right thing, even through my mistakes. I wish he could be sitting here, across the table from me. Listening to all my concerns and ideas, he would give me the right advice I need to hear.
Why do people who have such major influences in our lives have to leave so soon? I could really use that hug again. A part of me wants to go back to sleep so I can try to relive it.
There is much uncertainty in my life right now, and I'm really REALLY struggling with how to cope with it.
I have the desire to move. I've finally mentioned this to my mom this morning as she checks in with me while on her cruise.
In order to move, I need to find out what career path I intend on taking this next year or two and see what I need to do to get where I want to be.
This thought just came to me.... Life by yourself is difficult. Not because of compromise (I get it, I don't have to compromise with anyone, really) but because of options. Too many options to be exact. Couples who are together make decisions based on each other. If Shelley wasn't married to Steve, would she compromise to move to Colorado? Probably not, then again she might not be living here anyways. However, she and Steve are married and have a lovely bundle of joy, would it be easier to stay here? Of course, but they are compromising a move to ensure that Evie grows up with the best life possible.
My life has no compromise. It's scary.
I'm not saying that making a decision based on a child or spouse\partner is an easier one or is more "glamorous by any means. Each has its own demons.
Life is hard when you find yourself so removed from any "rough draft" outline you've ever had about your destiny. I don't mean my life is miserable because I'm single and living with my grandma. (granted I have days like that, but this isn't one of them)
It's: I'm educated, I don't have to compromise, and I'm unhappy, so what do I do to fix it.
1. Job. Teaching has been the most educational experience I've had in my life (aside from driving around the US for a month by myself). Every day I have the opportunity to give a child the best day of their life. To make the coolest memory they'll always remember. (Singing Eidle Weiss in my 3rd grade play) Kids run up to me and hug me on a daily basis, I get old stickers, traced drawings, invites to come to their houses, and I've been called "Mom" more times that I'd like to admit.
I've also been hit, pinched, bit, spit on, kicked, run into, cursed, screamed at, and hated. Lately, I've found myself struggling to remember the good. When I wake up in the morning I think, "another day of trying to get students to just follow directions" "how can I make a difference in these kids lives, if all I do is tell them to sit down, keep their hands to themselves, and walk in a line".
I guess the bigger picture is that I show them, that even when I'm frustrated I keep coming back, even if they get time out - I will be sure to hug them in the hall way, just because they do something wrong, doesn't mean I don't notice when they do something right.
My heart breaks, because slowly but surely, that's not enough for me anymore. Something is missing. I know I'm making an impact on these children's lives. My lessons are probably the most organized and best lessons I've ever taught in the past 4 years, but I'm afraid my impact on them doesn't outweigh their impact on me. I leave work in tears, tired, worn out, and sad. Deep down I have the feeling that I'm not using my own personal skills to the best of their ability. I want a job, that takes my personality traits and uses it for the better good of other people. Does that make any sense blog reader? I hope so. It kind of does to me. So what do I do about this? I keep teaching for now, even through the tears and sadness, there are glimpses of the "passion" for teaching I had last year. These students are learning each day from me, if they can see me as a "duck on a pond" then I'm doing my job. They don't need to know about my struggles with them, they need to see a consistent face in front of them each day, willing to keep trying to help them succeed. Maybe that's the biggest education I can give them.
As for myself, my research begins... What options do I have for a career? I did some preliminary research this morning on amazon and found a book that has great words of encouragement for people with my degree. I purchased the book.
More updates to come on this.
Please know: the section is all based on my opinion. I, Emily Boedeker, reserve all rights to these statements.
2. Location. I love Houston. It is home to me, and has been for most of my life. However, with the way things are going right now, I'm considering a change of locale. Where? That's a good question. I'm very interested in small town life. I enjoy trucks, deer, hole-in-the-wall places, and antique stores. I've begun looking up real estate in Llano TX. I wouldn't mind living in Fredericksberg either. But Ive just started looking this morning and Llano was the first place I searched. Granted this all rests upon the above "Job" section, so that's just left me to look around.
3. The DOOZY. Friends and family. A wise co-worker once told me "if you don't have family, then what do you have". That has stuck with me these past few months. A lot of my uncertainty as you've figured or read in my last post, is based on the people I love and care about the most. 90% of them are all related or closely in connection with each other. I have amazing people in my life. My sister, my best friend, my rock, my conscience, my mentor, my verbal punching bag, my lifeline. My best friend who puts up with my German stubbornness. My Mom who is as close to me as anyone can get, and will be happy to tell me like it is, even when I don't want to hear it. My Dad, (I tear up) the reason why I literally just up and walked away from Lance. My dad has shown me what I deserve in a man, and even though it hurts, walk away from someone who doesn't give that to me. Steve, my bro-in-law who is probably the most like me than I'd like to admit. My Crystal, I only knew her face to face for 10 months and I can't imagine life without her. My coworkers, my team, my rock, my best friends. Why would I consider moving from them? Right now it sounds crazy, distance is hard on friendships\relationships, across the country, down the hall, or in another city. I don't the answer to that one. Not yet, at least.
So what do I do about all this inner turmoil now that I've undoubtedly shared WAY to much with the cyber world? I don't know. But each time I put it in writing I feel better, like my thoughts are more organized. Guess Dr. Perminiter was ahead of her time. She told me once, "Sometimes we go through life with our pitcher empty, it takes time but we can fill our pitchers back up"
Desperately trying to figure it out,
E.
Once again, I find myself with lots on my mind. BIG things on my mind. Life altering ideas running through my head.
This morning I woke up having had a wonderful dream of PaPa Dale. I miss that man so much. I had walked outside out of a building, and there he was. Standing there just like it was yesterday. He looks up and sees me, and he smiles ear to ear. I run to him, as fast as I can and wrap my arms around his neck. It's my adult mind, but physically I'm 8 year old Emily. He's 80 year old Papa also. I sit here almost sobbing because it felt so real. I miss his wisdom, his conviction to let me know that I'm always doing the right thing, even through my mistakes. I wish he could be sitting here, across the table from me. Listening to all my concerns and ideas, he would give me the right advice I need to hear.
Why do people who have such major influences in our lives have to leave so soon? I could really use that hug again. A part of me wants to go back to sleep so I can try to relive it.
There is much uncertainty in my life right now, and I'm really REALLY struggling with how to cope with it.
I have the desire to move. I've finally mentioned this to my mom this morning as she checks in with me while on her cruise.
In order to move, I need to find out what career path I intend on taking this next year or two and see what I need to do to get where I want to be.
This thought just came to me.... Life by yourself is difficult. Not because of compromise (I get it, I don't have to compromise with anyone, really) but because of options. Too many options to be exact. Couples who are together make decisions based on each other. If Shelley wasn't married to Steve, would she compromise to move to Colorado? Probably not, then again she might not be living here anyways. However, she and Steve are married and have a lovely bundle of joy, would it be easier to stay here? Of course, but they are compromising a move to ensure that Evie grows up with the best life possible.
My life has no compromise. It's scary.
I'm not saying that making a decision based on a child or spouse\partner is an easier one or is more "glamorous by any means. Each has its own demons.
Life is hard when you find yourself so removed from any "rough draft" outline you've ever had about your destiny. I don't mean my life is miserable because I'm single and living with my grandma. (granted I have days like that, but this isn't one of them)
It's: I'm educated, I don't have to compromise, and I'm unhappy, so what do I do to fix it.
1. Job. Teaching has been the most educational experience I've had in my life (aside from driving around the US for a month by myself). Every day I have the opportunity to give a child the best day of their life. To make the coolest memory they'll always remember. (Singing Eidle Weiss in my 3rd grade play) Kids run up to me and hug me on a daily basis, I get old stickers, traced drawings, invites to come to their houses, and I've been called "Mom" more times that I'd like to admit.
I've also been hit, pinched, bit, spit on, kicked, run into, cursed, screamed at, and hated. Lately, I've found myself struggling to remember the good. When I wake up in the morning I think, "another day of trying to get students to just follow directions" "how can I make a difference in these kids lives, if all I do is tell them to sit down, keep their hands to themselves, and walk in a line".
I guess the bigger picture is that I show them, that even when I'm frustrated I keep coming back, even if they get time out - I will be sure to hug them in the hall way, just because they do something wrong, doesn't mean I don't notice when they do something right.
My heart breaks, because slowly but surely, that's not enough for me anymore. Something is missing. I know I'm making an impact on these children's lives. My lessons are probably the most organized and best lessons I've ever taught in the past 4 years, but I'm afraid my impact on them doesn't outweigh their impact on me. I leave work in tears, tired, worn out, and sad. Deep down I have the feeling that I'm not using my own personal skills to the best of their ability. I want a job, that takes my personality traits and uses it for the better good of other people. Does that make any sense blog reader? I hope so. It kind of does to me. So what do I do about this? I keep teaching for now, even through the tears and sadness, there are glimpses of the "passion" for teaching I had last year. These students are learning each day from me, if they can see me as a "duck on a pond" then I'm doing my job. They don't need to know about my struggles with them, they need to see a consistent face in front of them each day, willing to keep trying to help them succeed. Maybe that's the biggest education I can give them.
As for myself, my research begins... What options do I have for a career? I did some preliminary research this morning on amazon and found a book that has great words of encouragement for people with my degree. I purchased the book.
More updates to come on this.
Please know: the section is all based on my opinion. I, Emily Boedeker, reserve all rights to these statements.
2. Location. I love Houston. It is home to me, and has been for most of my life. However, with the way things are going right now, I'm considering a change of locale. Where? That's a good question. I'm very interested in small town life. I enjoy trucks, deer, hole-in-the-wall places, and antique stores. I've begun looking up real estate in Llano TX. I wouldn't mind living in Fredericksberg either. But Ive just started looking this morning and Llano was the first place I searched. Granted this all rests upon the above "Job" section, so that's just left me to look around.
3. The DOOZY. Friends and family. A wise co-worker once told me "if you don't have family, then what do you have". That has stuck with me these past few months. A lot of my uncertainty as you've figured or read in my last post, is based on the people I love and care about the most. 90% of them are all related or closely in connection with each other. I have amazing people in my life. My sister, my best friend, my rock, my conscience, my mentor, my verbal punching bag, my lifeline. My best friend who puts up with my German stubbornness. My Mom who is as close to me as anyone can get, and will be happy to tell me like it is, even when I don't want to hear it. My Dad, (I tear up) the reason why I literally just up and walked away from Lance. My dad has shown me what I deserve in a man, and even though it hurts, walk away from someone who doesn't give that to me. Steve, my bro-in-law who is probably the most like me than I'd like to admit. My Crystal, I only knew her face to face for 10 months and I can't imagine life without her. My coworkers, my team, my rock, my best friends. Why would I consider moving from them? Right now it sounds crazy, distance is hard on friendships\relationships, across the country, down the hall, or in another city. I don't the answer to that one. Not yet, at least.
So what do I do about all this inner turmoil now that I've undoubtedly shared WAY to much with the cyber world? I don't know. But each time I put it in writing I feel better, like my thoughts are more organized. Guess Dr. Perminiter was ahead of her time. She told me once, "Sometimes we go through life with our pitcher empty, it takes time but we can fill our pitchers back up"
Desperately trying to figure it out,
E.
Sunday, January 27, 2013
Where do I begin?
Hello everyone. I'm not sure where to begin.
On this warm January 27, I'm sitting in my PJs watching the pro-bowl at my parent's house. I'm dog sitting Tucker and Perry Mason while they are on the Carnival Magic for Mom's birthday cruise.
I enjoy the pro-bowl because the players just seem to have fun. I like that its not a stressful game, just fun.
There has been a lot on my mind\plate lately. I've become a hermit because of it. Its been weeks since I've "gone out" with friends, just been sitting at home or hanging with my family.
I don't care for airing out my dirty laundry in the cyber world, but I do feel like blogging about the generalities might be therapeutic.
My Burdens:
-Men. I dare post his name on here: Lance ended up not being the man for me. After our talk on the 1st, he and I continued in the middle area and even attempted a small trip together. However plans fell through, last minute. We went out for drinks after that, and I've never heard from him since. A tough pill to swallow, I deleted his number after my last text message went unanswered. A tearful evening that was, but it was for the best. I haven't cried any more, and I'm thinking that could be a contributing factor to my dark days lately.
-Colorado. A state I actually enjoy, think it is beautiful and I like to visit. But right now its the state from hell. A potential move for my sister, brother-in-law, and princess neice. This is still in negotiation with my brother-in-law's company. But my heart is shattered. My brain knows that this is best for them and their little family, but my heart is selfish as you see in these posts. I do know that my lack of social life with friends being taken over by family time is because I want to make sure Evie knows her auntie Em loves her more than anyone else in the world. Even more than myself.
-Work. Parts of work. Thats all I have to say about that.
- Retirement. Mom and Dad have mentioned retirement more and more lately. This is not a burden exactly, because I'm so excited that Dad would finally have the opportunity to move to Marble Falls the way he's dreamt about for the past 10 years. My concerns is with the Colorado move, them moving. I'm left here.
-Friends. I have some incredible people in my life. There are few that I've kept heavy on my heart these past few weeks. Once again, brain knows to be supportive and a set of ears. My heart is selfish and wants everyone home and\or doing the right thing.
-Myself. I wish I had the desire to get back to the gym like I was a couple years ago. I think I'm getting close to getting there because its been on my heart so much. Something I know I can fix instantly. 90% of life is showing up, 10% is what you do once you're there. So I guess walking into the doors would be the best first step to solve this burden.
-House. I love my house, it's perfect for me. I just feel like its not mine. Not sure why, it just doesn't feel like mine. Wonder what I could do to feel that way.
My Blessings:
-Family. Even with the geography of my family possibly changing, I'm super blessed to have a family I'm so close to, to even been upset if they move.
-Friends. Like I said, I have a great support group around me and really wonderful people who listen to me when I complain, laugh with me when I'm not, and come to me for help.
-Home. I love my house, its not perfect but its home.
-Job. Even on my worst days, I try to remember that there is someone out there that would give their right arm to have a school year's worth of "rough days" than not have a job. -I need to repeat this every day-
So blog world, there you have it. A rough outline as to what's been going on in my life. My head hurts after writing this. Feel free to offer input, I will try to update on how I overcome these burdens and add more things to my blessings list.
Off to bed.
Mallet Madness at work this week... breathing.
E.
On this warm January 27, I'm sitting in my PJs watching the pro-bowl at my parent's house. I'm dog sitting Tucker and Perry Mason while they are on the Carnival Magic for Mom's birthday cruise.
I enjoy the pro-bowl because the players just seem to have fun. I like that its not a stressful game, just fun.
There has been a lot on my mind\plate lately. I've become a hermit because of it. Its been weeks since I've "gone out" with friends, just been sitting at home or hanging with my family.
I don't care for airing out my dirty laundry in the cyber world, but I do feel like blogging about the generalities might be therapeutic.
My Burdens:
-Men. I dare post his name on here: Lance ended up not being the man for me. After our talk on the 1st, he and I continued in the middle area and even attempted a small trip together. However plans fell through, last minute. We went out for drinks after that, and I've never heard from him since. A tough pill to swallow, I deleted his number after my last text message went unanswered. A tearful evening that was, but it was for the best. I haven't cried any more, and I'm thinking that could be a contributing factor to my dark days lately.
-Colorado. A state I actually enjoy, think it is beautiful and I like to visit. But right now its the state from hell. A potential move for my sister, brother-in-law, and princess neice. This is still in negotiation with my brother-in-law's company. But my heart is shattered. My brain knows that this is best for them and their little family, but my heart is selfish as you see in these posts. I do know that my lack of social life with friends being taken over by family time is because I want to make sure Evie knows her auntie Em loves her more than anyone else in the world. Even more than myself.
-Work. Parts of work. Thats all I have to say about that.
- Retirement. Mom and Dad have mentioned retirement more and more lately. This is not a burden exactly, because I'm so excited that Dad would finally have the opportunity to move to Marble Falls the way he's dreamt about for the past 10 years. My concerns is with the Colorado move, them moving. I'm left here.
-Friends. I have some incredible people in my life. There are few that I've kept heavy on my heart these past few weeks. Once again, brain knows to be supportive and a set of ears. My heart is selfish and wants everyone home and\or doing the right thing.
-Myself. I wish I had the desire to get back to the gym like I was a couple years ago. I think I'm getting close to getting there because its been on my heart so much. Something I know I can fix instantly. 90% of life is showing up, 10% is what you do once you're there. So I guess walking into the doors would be the best first step to solve this burden.
-House. I love my house, it's perfect for me. I just feel like its not mine. Not sure why, it just doesn't feel like mine. Wonder what I could do to feel that way.
My Blessings:
-Family. Even with the geography of my family possibly changing, I'm super blessed to have a family I'm so close to, to even been upset if they move.
-Friends. Like I said, I have a great support group around me and really wonderful people who listen to me when I complain, laugh with me when I'm not, and come to me for help.
-Home. I love my house, its not perfect but its home.
-Job. Even on my worst days, I try to remember that there is someone out there that would give their right arm to have a school year's worth of "rough days" than not have a job. -I need to repeat this every day-
So blog world, there you have it. A rough outline as to what's been going on in my life. My head hurts after writing this. Feel free to offer input, I will try to update on how I overcome these burdens and add more things to my blessings list.
Off to bed.
Mallet Madness at work this week... breathing.
E.
Wednesday, January 02, 2013
Break Down over
Hello everyone, I apologize for my break down-blog post new years eve
Was really frustrated.
Well, all in all--- I finally asked the question to said "Boy- thats a friend- but not my boyfriend" last night.
Now I still didnt get a straight answer from him (ugh) but I feel so much better having had the converstation of "what are we? I would rather be with you than with anyone else... I don't need anything to change, but just knowing that this has the potential to become something more" conversation.
So, thats where I'm at. I came clean and told him where I'm at in this "relationship", so we'll see if he amps up his game--> we'll see.
I'm the most patient person I know, but I know he's worth it.
Was really frustrated.
Well, all in all--- I finally asked the question to said "Boy- thats a friend- but not my boyfriend" last night.
Now I still didnt get a straight answer from him (ugh) but I feel so much better having had the converstation of "what are we? I would rather be with you than with anyone else... I don't need anything to change, but just knowing that this has the potential to become something more" conversation.
So, thats where I'm at. I came clean and told him where I'm at in this "relationship", so we'll see if he amps up his game--> we'll see.
I'm the most patient person I know, but I know he's worth it.
Monday, December 31, 2012
New Year's Eve
I hate New Year's Eve.
It's a dreadful holiday\celebration that does nothing but remind me that each year I'm in the exact same place as I was the year before.
I'm bitter this evening, as I am every New Year's Eve.
Damned if I go out and get to see the lovely reminder of being 26 and single, or I can stay away from that and stay home and once again be reminded that I, Emily Boedeker, still don't have a person to celebrate with at midnight.
Good freakin' riddance I say.
Even then, its better than going out and drinking too much and then trying to drive home when the cops are working over time to make sure everyone stays safe.
I have no words for how I feel this year. You would think after 5 months of dating someone, he would want to spend new year's eve with you... but no.
I'm done. So freaking done.
I'm ready to run away, be gone for a long time again. I'm mad at myself because I've forgotten who I was when I came back from my trip this summer. What happened to me? I came back and BOOM, met a man who I honestly thought was the ONE I was going to marry. I'm a freaking idiot. Good RIDDANCE...
Screw New Year's. I hope yours was better than mine.
It's a dreadful holiday\celebration that does nothing but remind me that each year I'm in the exact same place as I was the year before.
I'm bitter this evening, as I am every New Year's Eve.
Damned if I go out and get to see the lovely reminder of being 26 and single, or I can stay away from that and stay home and once again be reminded that I, Emily Boedeker, still don't have a person to celebrate with at midnight.
Good freakin' riddance I say.
Even then, its better than going out and drinking too much and then trying to drive home when the cops are working over time to make sure everyone stays safe.
I have no words for how I feel this year. You would think after 5 months of dating someone, he would want to spend new year's eve with you... but no.
I'm done. So freaking done.
I'm ready to run away, be gone for a long time again. I'm mad at myself because I've forgotten who I was when I came back from my trip this summer. What happened to me? I came back and BOOM, met a man who I honestly thought was the ONE I was going to marry. I'm a freaking idiot. Good RIDDANCE...
Screw New Year's. I hope yours was better than mine.
Monday, September 17, 2012
In the Swing of Things
Hello everyone,
Sorry for the delay in posts. Things are going well enough in these parts. A LOT of things going on at work, none bad, but just busy busy busy times.
I'm looking forward to this weekend. Shannon and I have a hotel room downtown Houston to celebrate her 28th birthday. I'm looking forward to a few nights on the town!
Anywho, short update I know, But not much else to update now.
Much love,
E
Sorry for the delay in posts. Things are going well enough in these parts. A LOT of things going on at work, none bad, but just busy busy busy times.
I'm looking forward to this weekend. Shannon and I have a hotel room downtown Houston to celebrate her 28th birthday. I'm looking forward to a few nights on the town!
Anywho, short update I know, But not much else to update now.
Much love,
E
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Summer ends....the real world begins.
Greetings all,
As most of you know Summer Vacation is quickly winding down and teachers\students are getting back to the "salt mines" preparing for another school year.
This week\weekend was a lot of fun spending time at the Pt. Comfort United Methodist Church 60th Anniversary celebration. Granny Jackie really seemed to be having a blast and enjoyed reminiscing with her friends.
On a touch of sad news, Schultze (one of my family's dachshunds) had a herniated disc and lost quite a bit of movement in his hind legs. However my parents being wonderful and awesome had his back operated on and made it home yesterday around 3. He is doing pretty well, but has a long road to recovery. The sad part is, poor Schultze is only 3 years old. Will be 4 in November. Please keep him in your prayers for a full recovery!
Monday the 20th, me and the other teachers of my district go back to work with week's worth of Staff Development, and then the students arrive on the 28th.
Luckily, my classroom is pretty much all set up from my work up there this week and I'm anxious for how this year goes will all the changes my campus has made.
Hope all is well everyone,
E
PS. I'm hoping to be going to Las Vegas this Thanksgiving with my best friend Shannon. You know me, always having a trip planned!
PSS. I received an awesome early Christmas present from Santa this week! SB2K13 is going to be awesome!!
As most of you know Summer Vacation is quickly winding down and teachers\students are getting back to the "salt mines" preparing for another school year.
This week\weekend was a lot of fun spending time at the Pt. Comfort United Methodist Church 60th Anniversary celebration. Granny Jackie really seemed to be having a blast and enjoyed reminiscing with her friends.
On a touch of sad news, Schultze (one of my family's dachshunds) had a herniated disc and lost quite a bit of movement in his hind legs. However my parents being wonderful and awesome had his back operated on and made it home yesterday around 3. He is doing pretty well, but has a long road to recovery. The sad part is, poor Schultze is only 3 years old. Will be 4 in November. Please keep him in your prayers for a full recovery!
Monday the 20th, me and the other teachers of my district go back to work with week's worth of Staff Development, and then the students arrive on the 28th.
Luckily, my classroom is pretty much all set up from my work up there this week and I'm anxious for how this year goes will all the changes my campus has made.
Hope all is well everyone,
E
PS. I'm hoping to be going to Las Vegas this Thanksgiving with my best friend Shannon. You know me, always having a trip planned!
PSS. I received an awesome early Christmas present from Santa this week! SB2K13 is going to be awesome!!
Friday, August 03, 2012
Pintrest and ADD
Pintrest will be the end of me.
I sit here staring at my cluttered "study" area of my room and I cringe at all my piles and hodgepodge of crap. I see on pintrest all these neat organization ideas, however all I really think about when I see them is $$$$...
Granted the point of pintrest is to save money. So hopefully with more research I can find solutions to my piles.
However, I just sit here and get frustrated and annoyed. Therefore it will be the end of me.
I have the feeling my big road trip gave me ADD. Or at least made my ADD worse.
I have a million ideas running through my head on what I want to do. Whether it's fix up my house, get ready for school, plan another trip, or even daydream of Mr. Right.
OY.
I sit here staring at my cluttered "study" area of my room and I cringe at all my piles and hodgepodge of crap. I see on pintrest all these neat organization ideas, however all I really think about when I see them is $$$$...
Granted the point of pintrest is to save money. So hopefully with more research I can find solutions to my piles.
However, I just sit here and get frustrated and annoyed. Therefore it will be the end of me.
I have the feeling my big road trip gave me ADD. Or at least made my ADD worse.
I have a million ideas running through my head on what I want to do. Whether it's fix up my house, get ready for school, plan another trip, or even daydream of Mr. Right.
OY.
Saturday, July 14, 2012
If you Really knew Me....
My sister made this post, and she got it from our friend Danielle... I liked it, so here I go...
If you knew me, you'd know:
-I love being a goofball
-Thunderstorms make me nervous
-I love ketchup
-When I'm finding myself stressed\frustrated with my life, traveling always seems to fix it
-I'm addicted to traveling
-I love my Evie
-My roommate is my 79 year old grandmother...
-I have the fear that living with her will keep me from meeting Mr. Right
-I'm in the middle of a roadtrip around the US
-I daydream a lot
-I wish my house was newer and nicer
-It took me 26 years to understand my finances
-I miss college terribly, it was so much easier than being a real adult
-I have great family
-The handful of friends I've kept in touch with are amazing
-I have a blog for my travels www.emilyustour.blogspot.com
That is all for now, check back with my other blog for updates on my trip!
E
If you knew me, you'd know:
-I love being a goofball
-Thunderstorms make me nervous
-I love ketchup
-When I'm finding myself stressed\frustrated with my life, traveling always seems to fix it
-I'm addicted to traveling
-I love my Evie
-My roommate is my 79 year old grandmother...
-I have the fear that living with her will keep me from meeting Mr. Right
-I'm in the middle of a roadtrip around the US
-I daydream a lot
-I wish my house was newer and nicer
-It took me 26 years to understand my finances
-I miss college terribly, it was so much easier than being a real adult
-I have great family
-The handful of friends I've kept in touch with are amazing
-I have a blog for my travels www.emilyustour.blogspot.com
That is all for now, check back with my other blog for updates on my trip!
E
Sunday, June 03, 2012
In the Middle
One of my very best good friends just informed me she is moving states this summer. I feel in the middle. I'm very happy for her because it is a really neat adventure to go on. However, the selfish part of me is crushed. She's been a great confidant, sound board, and friend for me. The thought of her not being near by is hard, even if I haven't known her very long. So once again, I'm in the middle. Happy\Sad, Supportive\Selfish, etc...
Saturday, June 02, 2012
End of Year 3
Well, I'm down to the last week of school. 187 days gone and a world's worth of experience under my work belt.
Where does that leave me?
Summer has so many fun things planned right now. June 10 I leave on the Carnival Magic (again) with my friend from college. and I am currently watching my lovely neice Miss Evie. I love her so much. She's really easy to watch. She's very content. Not my idea for an exciting night as a single 26 year old but I'm okay with it.
Hopefully more update later.
Happy Anniversary to Shelley and Steve.
Wednesday, May 23, 2012
Blessed
I am by far the most blessed person I know of. (Well close to it) But life is really good right now. I just need to stop and smell the roses more often!
While some say teaching is an "easy" job and how I have no room to complain because I have "3 months" off in the summer. I would like to take a minute to say, no. Yes I chose a profession that does lend itself to wonderful vacation time, but please know that it does not mean my job is easy. I just got home today from a leadership retreat with my campus leaders and it was 2 days full of planning, problem solving, and team building. I don't know if it is really worth my time to defend my career as being difficult or even taxing, but I did want to mention that.
How am I blessed? Well, I think anyone who does know teachers will be the first to say that the mood around the school campus is differnt or even the mood of the teachers outside of school is different. We do see an end in sight. I find myself in happier spirits and even excited to finish out the school year strong! My mom posted a fun blog about the "End of School" and she was 100% correct. Its a feeling no one gets to replicate. I wish everyone could.
Next school year holds awesome potential again. It's crazy to think of how different things will be. But in a great way. I wish our students knew how lucky they are to have their teachers. They're amazing.
What an amazing school year for me. Lots of sad changes, lots of great changes, and a crap-ton of learning. I look forward to the travels this summer because I feel I earned them.
If you're reading this blog, thank a Teacher.
E
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Self Reflection
I have found that there comes a time in every persons life that we must self reflect. The words have been stuck in my head all weekend after we had a student at school make a poor choice in handling his emotions and we used the term self reflection of the situation.
So I shall (on this relaxing Sunday) attempt to show my own personal self reflection I have been working on since yesterday.
I have an awesome life. But there are things I want to change. Just like me wanting to improve things at my job I need to assess what I can do to fix things when I'm not in front of a classroom...
1. Movement - I will start going back to the gym this week. No training, but moving. I need to get back on track.
2. Traveling- I have some awesome travel plans for this summer, even starting this week with a teacher's leadership retreat... So I need to make sure I keep my head above water financially.
3. Socially- I struggle with a few things socially (I have found) and I really enjoy my solitude. All I need is my room, my phone, tv, and computer. I really want to make sure I keep my options open in the relationship department. But then again, I'm not good at reading men.
Well, hopefully I can check things off my list ASAP so I can make sure I can continue a positive growth into adulthood.
Best wishes.
Crusing soon!
E
Wednesday, May 16, 2012
Monday, April 23, 2012
Traveling
Lots of stuff going on, whats my focus right now? Traveling of course.
Just back from an incredibly fun trip to Georgia. High up on my list of places I've been. I love my college girls\boys. Sarah, Calan, Audrey, Olivia, Ashleigh, and Jeff. Every time we see each other its like we've never left. It breaks my heart we're so far apart geographically.
I know why I'm traveling so much. I just wish I could afford to travel more.
Just back from an incredibly fun trip to Georgia. High up on my list of places I've been. I love my college girls\boys. Sarah, Calan, Audrey, Olivia, Ashleigh, and Jeff. Every time we see each other its like we've never left. It breaks my heart we're so far apart geographically.
I know why I'm traveling so much. I just wish I could afford to travel more.
Friday, April 13, 2012
Monday, April 09, 2012
Time for a Change
I'm ready for some more happy changes in my life. I've found some good inspiration, but I hope I can follow through with it. I had done a wonderful job about getting in shape a couple summers ago, however I've since fallen off the bandwagon.
A friend of mine has done a wonderful job getting herself in shape and I long for that same success.
I know what I need to do to lose the weight, however keeping up the motivation is half the battle.
Thoughts? Prayers? Accepting all encouragement.
A friend of mine has done a wonderful job getting herself in shape and I long for that same success.
I know what I need to do to lose the weight, however keeping up the motivation is half the battle.
Thoughts? Prayers? Accepting all encouragement.
Tuesday, April 03, 2012
Dark Days
I've been having some dark days lately.
Nothing worth venting on here, but just dark days.
Lots has changed, really really really fast and its finally catching up to me. Looking forward to something happy in my life happening....
CEL
Nothing worth venting on here, but just dark days.
Lots has changed, really really really fast and its finally catching up to me. Looking forward to something happy in my life happening....
CEL
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Addicted
Well, things are infinitely better than my last posts. I'm very happy to say that a cruise can fix all life's stresses. Its just the right amount of freedom to help you reset yourself to be a better person.
I liked it so much, I booked another. Yes, I know its an expensive habit. Yes, its worth it. No regrets.
I read the Hunger Games book this weekend. Enjoyed it, I just wish it didn't take so long to get into it. Much better by chapter 8. Will hopefully see the movie next weekend!
I liked it so much, I booked another. Yes, I know its an expensive habit. Yes, its worth it. No regrets.
I read the Hunger Games book this weekend. Enjoyed it, I just wish it didn't take so long to get into it. Much better by chapter 8. Will hopefully see the movie next weekend!
Thursday, March 08, 2012
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